Trails and Faith…

Life brings many challenges, and we face many battles. I remember when I thought I knew the Father and that my faith was entirely in Him until someone tested it. The confidence I had in Him turned to anger, and I started to question Him and His love for me and how He could allow someone to cause me so much pain, especially when they claimed to be Christians.
A few months passed, and after all the drama had died down, I began to see things differently. Not everything that happens in life is God’s fault, and not everyone who claims to be a Christian is. Matthew 7:16 says we will know them by their fruit.
All my questions and anger towards Him were because of my lack of faith in Him. James 1:2-3 says, count it all joy, my brothers, when you meet trials of various kinds, for you know that the testing of your faith produces steadfastness. I now realize this trail has made me more robust, and looking back, I now see how I made the giant much more significant than it was by feeding it fear and lacking the faith I thought I had. Matthew 10:28 says, and do not fear those who can kill the body but cannot kill the soul. Instead, fear Him who can destroy both soul and body in hell.
All those questions I was spilling out to the Father were questions from a place of fear, hurt, and pain. The truth is, He was there the whole time, protecting me and removing me entirely from the situation. I just wouldn’t let myself see Him. I learned not all blessings are from the Father, and the devil blesses too. Matthew 4:9 says, satan will give His followers an entire kingdom if they bow to him, and this taught me how looks could be deceiving.
The most important lesson learned from the whole ordeal was how I was lying to myself. My faith was not in the Father. I was so consumed by what those people were doing to me that I was allowing that giant to defeat me. If I had just stopped, called out to Yahweh, I would not have been walking around in that wilderness for as long as I did, covered in fear.
Today I give Him glory for showing me truth. I believe Romans 8:28, which says, and we know that all things work together for good for them who love God and when faced with trials, I try to remember that every test requires faith, and I ask myself, is yours in God or the things of the world?

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